He don’t like it

[Newgirl]

Morning all, so I’ve had a long look at myself and I decided I need to get stronger to get out. So I’ve told myself that I can do this and since then I have tried my hardest not to let it show that it’s bothering me. I went to a family members the other night and he actually rang them said he is concerned as couldn’t get hold of me (no he was checking I was there) I ignored it all! Then he came up and said oh you have your phone on charge I was like yep (not sure why that matters) so as hard as it is I’m doing this and I really think he hates it! But I’m past caring now I’m taking back some control over myself. Now just need to get out.

[Mellow]

I know how hard it is I’ve been doing the same slowly taking back control it first started me wearing what the hell I want ,starting to think myself more about what I want in life it’s still early for me I haven’t totally left but in my eyes it’s over.he’s still giving me mind games saying the relationship is on and off depending what he wants out of me but I’ve been ignoring and trying to come to terms with what is happening

[Newgirl]

I haven’t left yet either I’m desperate too. The mind games are hard work and exhausting so too is the realisation of what we are going through. I really struggled accepting that he is controlling etc but he is. I’m not quite sure if I am just putting the mask on like I have for years or if I just have had enough of it and my strength is actually growing I am sure time will tell.

[GrumbleBear]

Yes!! This is me too! Also started with wearing what I want, doing make up, going out and socialising!! And when he asked if I’m going out or something, instead of explaining why, I just simply say yes. He’ll ask further questions which I’ll answer honestly but I don’t do it out of guilt (all the time anyway, it’s still not anxiety free, I just don’t show that it bothers me!)

[Newgirl]

I understand that! Anxiety is still high and I haven’t quite got to going out but just not explaining is huge. I’m just done with it! I want out as soon as possible why does it seem as soon as you’ve decided that’s it they then don’t kick off so you can actually say it I feel like I am waiting for that next episode so I can just say I’m done

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