Not sure if this helps or not, but just before I left, I remember feeling like I was going mad, I didnt know what was real and what wasnt and this scared me, however, it was feeling like this that got me to walk away, I had to make it stop, stop the madness, and somehwere inside of me I knew that the only way to do that was to get away from him.
I now know that it was because of the all the lies he told me that led me to feeling like I was going mad. You’re head sounds like it could be in a similar way? You dont know what to belive, what are his motives, which suggests to me you’re wondering if you’re being manipluated, whether it is now in this instance or before, seems to me that your gut is telling you he can not to be trusted. Good luck x