He has been locked in his x room all day, curtains shut, no sign of life…not the first time. It’s always like that.
All day…the kids are with me. The male role model gentleman from x Domestic Abuse Services came to walk with my son, I felt like asking him to show me what is it like to be a normal man…i obviously didn’t.
I heard so much rubbish this morning…projection. I have even been told I am damaged goods from my childhood…and so much worse stuff…it’s incredible to hear it all.
I sometimes wonder if we will one day find him dead in his x room…hung, overdosed on sleeping tablets, who knows, sometimes he comes out sounding slurred in his speech…
I have to stay strong and detached but I worry one day it may happen. I do check when he is all locked in his room. But today the kids told me he has not even come out for a wee…