Hi Barati, and welcome😊
Well done for getting out, and reaching out, it takes so much courage. KIP is right, be battle ready. Educate yourself and give yourself time. We become so conditioned when we live in abuse to be hyper vigilant, reacting to every twitch our abuser makes and trying to anticipate what’s going to happen. Allow yourself the time to process what you’re feeling, then you can respond to to situations rather than reacting. You dont have to jump to attention when he snaps his fingers anymore, you escaped that. But it’s a deeply embedded response and will take time and effort to overcome. Be patient with yourself and keep reaching out for support. It’s a tough road, but few things worth doing in life are easy, and taking your life and power back are the most worthwhile things you will ever do xx