I can’t do it :( failed miserably

[Anonymous]

Had my GP appointment today for the review on my depression and new tablets etc I was all prepared to show bruises on arm and back/bottom but covered up and couldn’t bring myself to say anything other than “ things are ok at home it’s just me. “
Won’t be seeing till another month and just left with a doubled up dose.
Feel so weak and just tied. I really am seeing true colours cus even though I had the text apology when I showed him the result of being thrown eg bruising he just said well you antagonise . So he wasn’t sorry at all 🙁

[Falling Skys]

HI big big hugs xx

I stop going to the doctors for a long time as I couldn’t bring myself to verbalise what I was going though so can understand how you feel.

In the end I wrote a letter and pass it over to the doctor at our appointment which may help you too.

A typical abuser always someone else’s fault. Nothing you say or do deserves a beating.

Don’t give up your a star.

FS xx

[Anonymous]

Thank you Falling sky’s..
that’s a good idea about writing a letter to hand over. Were they ok about it? I’m so much better writing as I learnt when u called women’s aid I just can’t say out aloud things ..

[Anonymous]

I not u I mean sorry

[Falling Skys]

Mine was fine, but I kept it simple. Or have bullet points for you to refer to.

Good luck.

FS x

[KIP.]

Make sure you photograph injuries for doc too x you could always post them to her x

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Anonon
I am also not good in talking, Englush is nit my native language. I am good in writing though as this is the only way I communicate with people (online). So I write the diary in English, and this really helped when police came. I just gave them to read. Also sent it to domestic abuse support officer to describe my situation.
When I will see solicitir, I will take it with me as well.
I am also thinking to see my GP and talk to her. I can’t sleep well and have terrible migraine attacks due to the constant stress I live in.

[Falling Skys]

Hi

I saw a doctor today I didn’t go into your details but I was seeing them regarding the aftermath of my abuse and he said that any doctor would be pls to has a letter pass to them so they can help their patients. x

[Anonymous]

Ah thank you Falling sky’s it’s something I am seriously considering as I don’t think I can verbalise it as I just “ play it down” even when saying etc.. plus so much I genuinely am ashamed to even say aloud ( this has made me partly see how wrong it must be) .
I’m so sorry to hear how hard things are with migraines and the stress … it’s so amazing that you have also written things too.. it’s really encouraging..

Xx

[Anonymous]

I didn’t think of posting pics either kip ive taken pictures printing may be an issue so perhaps if make reference to them in writing something and I could show phone ?ahhh they may not even care argh I just feel daft

[Falling Skys]

Abusers make us feel daft stupid at fault and even embarrassed for what they do to us.

Our silence gives them more power.

It is hard to speak out I know I cried today about what I have been through but once I started talking and telling I started to heal.

I’m having a wobble at the moment but things are so much better than they were.

You are a good person and you deserve better.

FS xx

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