Hi there BettyBoo333, I wanted to offer you some support. It sounds as though you are only just coming to terms with what had been happening for such a long time, it is understandable that it feels overwhelming.
As the others have already suggested, there are specialist support services available. You can find some information about Rape Crisis here. You could also contact RASASC (Rape and sexual abuse centre) They have a confidential national helpline offering counselling and advice.
Best wishes
Lisa