Hi. I am supposed to be feeling safe feeling after I escaped from my abusive house. Yes, I feel safe from my ex. But, what is this feeling?
I feel confused. Everything is so mixed. I currently feeling lonely, missing my happy days that I had from my previous home, with him. Missing that I had nice dating times with him. Now I feel totally alone. I don’t have any child. I feel like in deep deep ocien. Why? I wanted free from him, but on the other hand, I don’t know what I am feeling now.
What is this? Anyone have answer for this?
I will have counceller on next week, but… I don’t know. I am not saying I want to go back to him, or go back to abusive house. No, I don’t want that. But… in my deep heart I feel like I have a big hole inside….
I feel like I won’t feel any love anymore, I don’t know why I am living for now.
I really not sure what is going to be like with my future.
Sorry for my rent.