I wish and wish I never told anyone about what’s going on even up to recently because I feel nothing but judgment, shame and really just embarrassed. People gave up being my friend, never even tried being there for me. They got fed up. All gave up because they didn’t understand why I just won’t leave.
All judgment for still being in this position. I feel embarrassed every single day. I just desperately wanted someone to hear me, to help me. I know now, only I can help myself. Can’t help but feel so pathetic not just as a person but as a mother. What kind of mother am I ? Still here after all he’s done and said. Putting our child through it. I am pathetic.