Hi Hun
I understand the feeling of been scared , how u think staying quiet is only option left, they steal our voice , but all your doing is messing your own head up , I did that thinking that was solution , u have to get out first , help yourself first and then help your kids. I had to get put myself ,my sons r emotionally damaged , I’ve still got a long wAy to go heal but by getting myself out and getting strong I can be a strong pillar for my sons for them to get help they need . It is hard work when the kids mirror the behaviour but by getting support myself I can only keep trying to get them to accept help