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      When I was just (detail removed by Moderator) years old my uncle strangled me until I went unconscious. I told my parents at the time and I wasn’t believed. I even became the laughing stock of the family. Got told numerous times by different family members that I was a lier and I should be ashamed of myself. I’ve suppressed my emotions about it for (detail removed by Moderator) years and forced myself to be around him at family gatherings etc. It’s made me feel worse about him and the situation as a whole.
      (detail removed by Moderator) someone told him I was referring to him as an abuser. I still don’t know who it was. It created an issue and I’ve again been told how I’m a disgrace for lying and bringing up ancient history. As well as being told I should’ve said at the time instead of bringing it up all these years later. I’ve also been told that he never made other family members feel unsafe.
      I’ve been made out as if I’m the issue and my family of origin seems to think because it’s easy for them to pretend it never happened it’s easy for me. It’s the elephant in the room and I have no support for it at all. I don’t want him near me but my family expect me to be near him.
      (detail removed by Moderator) I didn’t get him a Xmas present because I didn’t see the point anymore but my mother got him one in my name. Even after I told her I didn’t want to get him anything. She went behind my back and got him something in my name anyway. Even after seeing how upset I was in Christmas Day over it continued to give it to him because it was easier for her.
      Dreading this Christmas as I know he’ll come around (detail removed by Moderator)
      I want to go no contact with him but I know my family aren’t going to respect it and will force me to have contact. My family are only interested in what is easier for them. They don’t care how I feel and are more concerned about how he feels.
      I’m considering getting a restraining order but don’t know if I’d get one as there isn’t any evidence and not sure if I’d want to go to court either.
      Help! I’m confused, lost and I don’t know what to do.

    • #163172
      lover of no contact

      Hi Mumtopaws,

      Welcome to the forum. You are in the right place and no, you definitely are not the problem. I remember that feeling well when a whole family group takes the side of the abuser. It’s awful, and it’s added emotional pain on top of the abuse by the abuser. Know that you are not alone and this seems to be the typical pattern of family members when they are in close proximity to an abuser. They usually align themselves with the abuser. Not all families, but in my experience it seems to be the norm. The pain of being not only abused but then dismissed by others when we need their caring and support. The family should be ostracizing the abuser,not you who was abused so dangerously by him. You could have died. The family members who have aligned themselves with the abuser can’t be reasoned with, it’s a reflection of them. It’s who they are. They have let themselves down. If your daughter came to you and told you she’d been strangled by your brother or your husband’s brother, you know you would not have reacted like your family and made fun of your daughter and not offer any support but actually abuse her further. You can’t change them, you can only reach out to people who will support and believe you so you can heal from this double abuse from a whole family system. So keep posting on here all your thoughts and feelings about it all.

    • #163174

      So I was abused sexually by a close family member (detail removed by moderator) Over the years my mum has tried and tried to get us together to be a big hapoy family and i ised to try but i couldnt get the rage the hurt out of my head. I was also raped by another family member and never told a soul as i wasnt believed the first time. Since seeing a counsellor ive now learned that i dont have to see these men i can say no and I do.
      I have no contact with either family parties etc i dont go to unless i want to and then i avoid them i stay away its not always easy nor possible these men dont believe they did anything wrong but I know I know what they did and to me thats what matters.
      I am living with a not so nice husband and have never told him or anyone out of this forum and my counsellor and i dont think I ever will shame doubt fear will always follow me but I can help myself like you can by saying No by staying away your family like mine want whats easy they want that picture perfect family life which isnt real you dont have to allow them to have it. Set boundries believe that you deserve to feel safe and heard sweetie because you do xxxxx

    • #163683

      Thank you both,

      I feel incredibly angry about their response to it. I’m aware that this is the norm response for many families being aware didn’t prepare me for it. I’m angry that I’m even angry about their response or lack thereof.
      I’ve tried to seek support but couldn’t find it anywhere. I’ve bottled up so many emotions over the years that I don’t even know how I feel half the time. It’s not quite numb but like I can’t describe how I feel. Don’t know if it’s because I was numb for so long and don’t remember how each feeling feels or just a different type of numbness.
      I’m not hoping to change my family as they’ve made it completely clear that they just don’t get it and are happy for him to continue to be around me and me to be at greater risk.
      I would just like to not worry so much about how they’re going to react to my boundaries and feel like I’m not so alone; fighting an army.

    • #163690
      lover of no contact

      Yes you are fighting an army. So unfair how the majority always side with the abuser. That’s my experience, I see it in the workplace,the family etc. I think they lack courage to do the right thing. Yes abusers usually have an army of people supporting them. But with time I’ve managed to accept this. I lost a whole family system (my ex’s). It hurt alot and it’s taken me alot of time to heal from it but now I’ve accepted it. That’s their choice. Anger and rage are natural responses. You will work through them. Keep reading the posts on here and posting. It really does help.

    • #163694

      Thinking of you, I’m so sorry that this is happening.
      I’ve had trauma focused counselling for abuse and I’m waiting for another round. It felt different to other counselling that I’ve had as breathing exercises, thinking ‘will this matter in 6 months time’ etc I did not find helpful for dealing with massive life altering trauma though good for dealing with other things. I’m also not sure how I feel about my abuse, maybe numb, maybe just desperately sad.

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