Ive left, now ready to report but scared..

[Unormalised@1]

I left my abusive partner (detail removed by moderator) years ago.
He had full financial control and sexually abused me for years however as he done it in my sleep, ive only witnessed it and properly knew he done it 3 times (although I did wake up sore down there a lot.
His excuse 1st was that we hadn’t been intimate, (I had just had a baby and a lot of stitches were still not healed) and I woke up to him rubbing me down there.. every time I thought it happened after this, he said i was wrong n made me feel guilty for even thinking he would do it again. The third time, I woke up and pretended to still be asleep while he was rubbing me and pleasuring himself until I pretended to wake up a little and he stopped til he thought I was asleep again. I was halfway through pregnancy when this happened and wish I had reported it at the time.
I’ve left now and have a new partner but still have to have contact with him for the kids, which is draining my mental health and making my anxiety really bad. I’m scared it’s too late to report it and it wont be serious enough. All the evidence I have is in messages where I’ve said about him sexually touching me with no consent and him apologising in them and s letter which he doesn’t say what it is but apologises for the “horrible treatment” I want to report to put my mind at ease, does that make sense? I’m scared to report incase I still have to give him contact with the kids during investigation as he took them out of nursery and away in the car refusing to tell me where they were during the breakup when he found out I’d started seeing someone else (who helped me massively to get out of the house and gave me the confidence to know that what he was doing to me was wrong)and refused to bring them back until I went into the house and promised I hadn’t called the police.
Do you think it’s too late or not worth while to report? I need help and feel like I get passed from pillar to post when I ask for advice 🙁

[KIP.]

There are various ways to report. You can do it anonymously or you can make a full statement to the sexual crimes police unit. I did it and I don’t regret a thing. He was questioned by the police. It gave me some closure to know he is their problem now. However if you still have kids and contact with him you need to make sure you’re covered legally with a contact order etc. Make sure he cannot make things more difficult for you. Maybe speak to a domestic abuse officer first on 101. Or ring rape crisis helpline. There’s no time limit on reporting sexual crimes. Can you use a third party for all contact? My only fear is that he will make counter allegations and use the children to hurt you. Only you know what his reaction is likely to be but you have some evidence and he may trip himself up in a police interview.

[diymum@1]

id report the abuse and see where this takes you. as far as custody – abduction wont be taken lightly id say you might have grounds for supervised contact in a centre xx if he makes counter allegations id say your case will stand strong given what he has done – very traumatic not knowing if he was bringing them home xx

[Unormalised@1]

That’s what I’m hoping, I’m not sure they’ll find the message which he admitted it but if they question on the apologies he made, he might trip up although hes a very good liar.
I’ve made an appointment at the local station in the next few days once I get the kids back home and go from there although I scared that he will somehow turn it on me 🙁

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