Had a night of little sleep last night. Began to think of how I felt sometimes my relationship with my ex was like father and disobedient teenager. Like he would ask me to do stuff and I would deliberately do the opposite knowing he wouldn’t like it. Did anyone else feel like this? E.g he asked me once to wait till he came out a shop so we could smoke together so I decided to smoke my cigarette while he was in the shop as an act of defiance. (Well I had just gotten fed up of being told what to do probably and thought sod it) Like I predicted he wasn’t happy and said “you never do what I ask” and I said you’re not my dad but that’s what it was like. This is a bad explanation but I know what I mean. That sort of stuff happened all the time.