Letting it go

[Graysky]

Hi

I don’t login very often now as I am settled now with my own flat for quite a few years now. When I do I find it hard to read some of your accounts and experiences. My heart goes out to anyone still living with their abuser.

Recently there have been a few social media posts about strangulation. This has brought back a few memories for me .  Part of wants to let things go and forget about the past . But the other side wants to scream from the rooftops . My Ex never apologized for any of his behaviour and I never had the courage to tell him how he made me feel and still feel some degree of responsibility for his behaviour though I haven’t a clue why.

I have had therapy mainly for my eating disorder but always found it impossible to actually discuss any details around what life was like with him.

I am in a new job now and now one knows anything about me or my past which sometimes feels lonely.

What is there to gain by bringing up the past now ?

Thanks for reading x

[Stargazing1]

🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗🤗 some gentle hugs for you 🤗.  Please take care of yourself.

[Stargazing1]

My heart goes out to you . You sound like a very brave person.

[Stargazing1]

I’m so sorry you had to deal with such awful behaviour.  Something you didn’t deserve.   I’m so glad you got out .

[Graysky]

Thank you for your kind words stargazing 1 .  I do feel a much stronger person now and actually feel pity for my ex .   I still regret wasting so many years though.

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