Hello TwentyOnePilotsFan,
Thank you for your post and for sharing what you’re going through.
I’m sorry to hear about the abuse you have experienced from your mother, it must be a devastating realisation to come to.
It sounds like living with her has really shone a light on the behaviour, and you’ve been able to reframe the way you view this. It could be the first step of a long journey and I’m glad that you’ve decided to reach out for support with this.
I’m sure other users will be able to offer some advice and support soon.
Take care and do keep posting to let us know how you are doing.
Lisa