Lovely evening out

[HopeLifeJoy]

Hi everyone,

This is my first post in Positive Moments, I thought I’ll share it with you.
I’m on anti-depressives because I suffer from panic attacks and depression. I am getting better, trying to clime out of this awfulI dark place that I’ve been.

A friend of mine invited me to go to her goodbye party. She is moving to another country. She invited about 10 people, most of which I already met.
I made it my goal to go there. I told myself even if it’s just to show up, say hi and leave right after, it’s my right. She knows my story, she would understand. I ended up staying the entire evening, I felt so comfortable! I forgot that I used to feel at ease in a group of people! It’s been such a long time. It has been a warm, loving, fun and peaceful evening. Everyone was friendly and relaxed. There was just one girl who didn’t quite follow the jokes and the ambiance in general. She was the loudest and controlling peoples moves and attention onto her. A n********t. I recognised the specie. I observed her a little while and wondered why she isn’t as relaxed and enjoys herself like the rest of us and I came to the conclusion that she was not able because she lacks empathy (the ability to understand and share the feelings of another). And that is what the rest of us shared. That’s why the jokes and the warm interactions went across the room between all of us with such ease. And it felt so good to be part of it. I had forgotten how to enjoy myself among others. Since the abuse I encounter one manipulative person after another. It’s just been so much. An overdose of manipulators. I’ve become so anxious about everyone and everything. Not knowing how to go on.
That evening was such a nice change. A breath of fresh air. Showing me what I used to enjoy and that life is worth living. Feels like a tiny part of my soul shines again 🙂

[KIP.]

Thanks for your positive post. I’m slowly beginning to enjoy new relationships too. Meeting new people and having girl friends. When I think how much my life revolved around him. It left nothing for myself. I too used to feel intimidated by crowds of people. I think it’s because our confidence was so broken. And yes, I too can recognise (detail removed by moderator)and abuser personalities and avoid them at all costs lol. Hope you have many many more great nights x

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