So sorry to hear that you have been left like this, having to deal with these issues alone.
Keep the counselling going though because it will continue to allow you to open up & deal with the issues.
Coercive control eats at our physical & emotional well-being. We come to rely on them & so miss them when they are no longer there but you will regain your sense of self worth & there will always be someone here to talk too especially when you feel low xx