I hate when awful memories pop into my head. They can be random and cruel. Try to think of something funny. A time when you got one over on him. A time when he made a real a**e of himself lol. I bet there were many. Remember it’s a roller coaster ride to recovery. Down one day but super high another. On those high days try to write down what that feels like, then on the down days you can remind yourself that super high days will come again x