Just feel like it’s never ending, I know it hasn’t been long. Many years with my abusive husband and months out but I don’t sleep at all. I feel no peace, even though there is no ultimate threat to me. Because we have children and he has access (still supervised but this will be coming to an end soon). The threat I guess is always there.
My heart is broken and I feel broken, I work and have a job I love, I love parenting solo (it’s easier I feel tired all the time). But I feel restless like I want to run away. I feel either happy or depressed never on an even keel. I am tempted to see a doctor, after years of him telling me I was mental I was terrified to do that I case he had children taken from me. I see my therapist today who is good but I feel like therapy on it’s own isn’t enough.