I’m new to the forums, thought I’d say hallo, I don’t know what to share as the rules don’t allow the typical kind of intro, but I guess I can say I’m a mum, I’m married, and I’ve recently started to talk about my relationship with various people like a counsellor, my doctor, a couple of domestic abuse helplines, and a couple of very good friends, and people keep telling me my husbands behaviour is far from normal, some have said it’s abusive, a couple of people have told me he has raped me. I find it really hard to use these words. Earlier this year I would have said I had a good marriage. Now I find myself considering leaving. We’ve had two social services referrals recently, not sure what I can say about that, it’s ongoing and he doesn’t yet know.
Every day I struggle with this problem – I want to be free of it and free my kids from it – but I also find it nigh on impossible to imagine actually leaving, or better still, getting him to leave so that me and the kids can stay in our home.