Hi Alittlelost,
I hope that posting on the Forum will give you some more clarity about your situation. More often than not if something doesn’t feel right about your relationship, it probably isn’t.
It might be worth chatting this through with a support worker from Women’s Aid on their online live chat: https://chat.womensaid.org.uk/
It might be worth linking up with your local domestic abuse service too. They might be able to give you a 1:1 support worker who you can meet up with face to face to give you both emotional and practical support. You can find the local service’s contact details here: https://www.womensaid.org.uk/domestic-abuse-directory/
Please keep posting on the Forum to let us know how you’re getting on,
Lisa,
Forum Moderator