Hi Sanguinesurvivor,
Welcome to the forum and thank you for sharing with us about how you’re feeling. I’m glad you’ve found this space to reach out to other women who understand. You are not alone in feeling this way.
You aren’t weak but it does sound like you’re probably quite overwhelmed. This is a normal response to being under abnormal stress, which experiencing or recovering from domestic abuse certainly is.
Do you have any support? You could chat to a Women’s Aid worker in confidence via our Live Chat service (8am – 6pm weekdays and 10am – 6pm weekends/bank holidays). They won’t tell you what to do but can discuss your situation and signpost you to other support that’s relevant for you.
Take care and keep posting,
Lisa
(Forum Moderator)