I’ve posted here a few times now and I will try and contact “live chat” today as advised by you all.
I realised last night that this FOG, trauma bonding or whatever it is, goes as far back as childhood.
I was (detail removed by moderator) and he was in his mid (detail removed by moderator) in a position of trust and I trusted him. We had a relationship for a long time – this also was abuse! I’ve never done anything about reporting him I just swept it under the carpet and moved on. I never wanted to expose him or ruin his life even though I have no loyalty to him? His still in a position of trust and the more I wonder about my own life now I think maybe I should log a report about him..
I know I have more immediate matters to deal with but maybe dealing with this past trauma will give me strength to move forward?