Hi Toffeeapple,
So sorry that you’re going through this. The truth is that abusers will always find something to get angry about. Changing moods unexpectedly keeps you on your toes, walking on eggshells, trying to appease them to avoid the consequences. It’s very controlling and not okay, you deserve to be able to live freely without his aggression and nasty words.
You have nothing at all to apologise for here. I’m glad that you have this space to share in.
Take care and keep posting,
Lisa