Since he is on remand I have taken the opertunity to collect some sentimental things from the house with a police escort because of his kids. The house was disgusting I couldn’t wait to get out and have a bath it was so bad. My first thought was thank goodness I don’t have to go back, that isn’t home. I know he wouldn’t very ofton allow me to clean because it ment people wouldn’t come but it was never dirty and smelly like that.
I now feel sorry for him and so guilty he obviously isn’t coping without me there. I’m sorry this sounds so stupid
You’re not stupid you have a big heart. But the state of the house is his doing and now nothing to do with you. I am still in the same address as my abuser and though he’s a good good cook he’s now living on junk food. I was concerned about it, and then thought if that’s how he wants to live its up to him.