Been to rasa (detail removed by moderator) left me feeling devastated and scared. (detail removed by moderator) What if no one believes me, what if my mind has made it all up? How can reporting something that happened decades ago help now? What if I can’t remember the details, even though I remember every detail. My head is buzzing I’m so tired I feel so ill, I can’t stop crying, I still have to get up and do my normal everyday stuff tomorrow. Called Samaritans, don’t want to talk to anyone, scared of repercussions and consequences, scared of loosing a friend because of this. No one to support me here, just can’t think at the moment. Want to forget this all happened, don’t want to face this. Other stuff I told them just can’t even go there, feeling so lost