I still havnt managed to break completely free but I feel like I’m getting stronger and setting boundaries for myself.
The latest lot of messages I nearly fell back but something triggered and i stopped again. When i read the messages when I’m not in a heightened emotional state they are clearly very manipulative and show examples of coercive control. I have so many of these messages from a number of years and have read about how this is a criminal offense but I’ve never felt strong enough to report it.
I do get this huge guilt that he will or is doing this to someone else and hes a dangerous person. I almost killed myself when it got really bad because I was so confused and depressed. I’m getting counselling now and although I slip back towards him I can see how he plays the psychological games and it stops me getting too involved.
Is it better to just get out or do I have a duty to stop him doing this to someone else. What if they dont get out? I just think he would get away with it and I’d be torn apart but i also feel responsible
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