Hi Iliketea
Thank you for your post. I can’t advise on the course but I just wanted to show you some support. I am sorry to hear about the horrible incidents, it’s awful when friends let you down or hurt you.
You are always so kind to others on the forum, and you deserve to be treated with kindness too by those around you. If you haven’t already, you could see if your local domestic abuse service offer any counselling;
Domestic Abuse Directory
Take care and keep posting
Lisa