I remember feeling this way after I left at first. I think there was probably just too much change to process, as well as suffering from a bit of cognitive dissonance and trauma bonds wreaking havoc all at the same time.
It took me a little while to get to a stage where I knew where I was or what I thought. I needed to get to know myself and trust my own judgement again. That’s the healing we all have to go through I suppose. It was tough though.
GR