What do we have to do following an abusive marriage in order to get our lives back in order? I know i will never be the same person i was before the marriage but cannot seem to find where or how i fit in now. I keep saying i just want to be me but in all honesty i cannot truly remember who that is. I have accepted the fact that i will never be as i was and resigned to the fact i will always have depression. Yet despite counselling through varying avenues i still cant let go of everything. Why is that? Why do we hold onto something so destructive when we know its power over us. I just want to be happy and content as i know i once was but will that ever be the case again. How do you find yourself after being so lost and consumed by darkness?