First Christmas after everything blew up. I’ve just been to midnight mass. Everything familiar seems infused with grief. It’s a really hard time of the year – statement of the bleeding obvious – and I thought I might be ok but I’m not really. First Christmas also when my daughter is really aware of the excitement of Christmas. I want it to be special for her of course. My grief is hard to hide. And it is made more difficult by too much contact this Christmas.
I am so sad but really I am just venting. I will be ok. I am resilient. I wish all of you peace and strength this Christmas. It is so good to be able to log in here and know that we all understand.
Have as good a christmas as you can and come home to yourself.
It is very hard this time of year and you first after things as you blew up. Getting used to life in a different is hard but deep down in your gut you properly know it’s for the best. The heart will catch up one day.
This is my first Christmas away too and I’ve been out of the/my house for nearly a couple of months. I all ready starting to feel more comfortable as I know if I was with him I would be walking on eggshells making sure ‘he’s’ ok and in his terms ‘make him happy’
Try and have fun with your daughter and if you need to cry then have a cry it’s ok be kind to yourself too xx