I am so sorry how you feel its really hard to try
And relax you will get all the support you need .
I do feel for you I feel anxious every day thinking what and if my partner and when he gets abusive all so he makes me feel on egg shells .
Your life is worth liveing never forget how far you have come and always tell your self that you are beautiful you life is worse everything.
This is the first step. But a very important first step. However tough things are you have absolutely done the right thing. Very proud of you. Just keep taking an hour at a time.Yiny little steps forward all add up x