As I write this I am shaking. As unpredictable as his behavior could be, this date is one of a very few I always knew he would kick of and so dreaded I have had him throw things hit me hit his children (my step children) them hit me. S
But why am I feeling paniced today? After x amount of years together I don’t have to worry about it today, he’s not here yet I am, to the point it’s making me feel sick. Sorry