Thoughts

[JustKeepSinging]

I can’t seem to turn off my brain despite my best efforts this evening.

I don’t know how to express myself so I wrote this. Hopefully others will get it too.

Love Blind

Why can’t I find the words to say
I’m hurting and I am so afraid.
He tells me that the light will burn
so I hide in shame & shade.

If I find the courage to speak out
Will he once again make me doubt?

Myself, my thoughts, my words, my mind?
Can love really have made me so blind?

When there is no one to talk to
Who can tell me right & wrong?
So for now I’ll smile, be polite
And pretend I’m playing along

But

There’s a small voice inside me
shouting “the problem isn’t you”
Can I trust that voice inside?
Or will I end up black & blue

Do I seek justification?
Who gives me permission to go?
Is it love for him that stops me?

Or fear of trusting myself…

That
is the answer I do not know

[Bethesda]

Love blind
What a waster my dear
We can’t save them
Our love is nothing for them…
I knew the true love in my daughter’s dad and you will never know how I regret to change his love for a toxic one
Leave him ASAP,please
Life is short,do you really want an everlasting miserable one?

[EbonyRaven]

It’s a great poem, and expresses your thoughts so well. It feels good to get it down doesn’t it.

[Escapee]

Hey just singing

That was very poignant and a sentiment I certainly understand.

And in answer to you question (and to my own) – it’s the fear of trusting yourself xx

As you ladies know, I’m almost out, but almost is the operative word. I still need to finish packing, sign my tenancy and then get my backside (and heart) several hundred miles away. I nearly stumbled today, I still love him dearly but then I remember why I can’t stay, so then I start trying to find ways we could try to make it work like we don’t live together but stay in our relationship at pop round to each others. Thankfully I saw a slither of his dark side as I did something that annoys him (so normal and innocent unless this person has experienced something severely traumatic which then it could make sense but still handled as grown rational adults). I safely back in the leaving camp again.

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