Update

[Texas]

So I am coming up to another time milestone since no contact.  Looking back, I can see how much I have grown and changed from the experience.  On the positive  side, I have more self-belief and I don’t suffer fools gladly any more.  On the other side, I am now very wary of new male friends, and sometimes just speaking with them can trigger a memory.  I guess in time I will learn to take people as individuals again and assess their integrity as individuals?

When I think of the Devil now, it does seem like it all happened many many years ago, which is good as I am putting it behind me.  Unfortunately though the damage does last a long time and I am still rebuilding my life, but all baby steps.  When I think of him now, I just think he has some serious issues which he tried to make me somehow responsible for.  But it is not, or never was my problem.  Sometimes I miss how special and happy I felt in the early days, but I still need to understand and learn that I can make myself feel that way about myself.

So I am still on my journey but I am hopeful for the future.

[Stargazing1]

So nice to see you here . I thought I recognised your name . I’m not sure if I chatted with you alot before but I think we engaged a little.  Baby steps is a good start . Good to hear you have grown and have more self believe that’s absolutely brilliant.  I’m really happy for you ☺️.  It’s understandable that you are weary it probably like wearing amour just for protection.   Taking that bit of time is a good idea .  I suppose for ages we blame ourselves for everything because that’s what we are led to believe.   Missing special moments especially those at the beginning are I suppose all part of understanding it all or making sense of it all . I’m really happy to hear you are moving on and pressing on . You got this.  Glad you came back to tell everyone how you are doing.  I wish you all the best in moving further forward with your life . Take care of yourself and keep being kind to yourself too . Sending king blessings .

[Texas]

Thank you for the reply 😀

I am determined to make some good come out of an awful experience, and I find using milestones to reflect on how far I have come really helpful and empowering.  The experience has actually set me off on a journey of self-discovery and self-acceptance, which  am grateful for.  I am learning so much.

[Stargazing1]

Your welcome @Texas , you really are . I am pleased that you are determined to make good out of an awful experience.  Hats off to you . I wish you so much more happiness than what you experienced before.  I wish you so much luck in your future journey ✨️.  Best wishes always ❤️. Please take care of yourself.

[Yesican]

It was lovely to read your post Texas. I think counting milestones is really important. It’s coming up to (detail removed by Moderator) months of No Contact for me and it feels like a huge achievement.

I am so glad that you’re on a journey of self acceptance and self discovery. Me too !

Take care xx

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