Had a bath watching the tv on my bed my eyes watering my hearts aching inside so much has happened and I’ve not fully got my head round it all. Saying that I’ve had contact too but starting no contact again. Thinking about the silly things like watching the t.v together no it wernt all bad. But I kind of think that i have a problem in myself. Because when I were with my eldest sons father before my ex I could only cope with him so long and I had to tell him to leave but saying that he were drinking 5 night’s a week and we’re gambling most our money he had too once put his head through my b.room window and punched a hole in my door so he too were abusive. I’m a total idiot maybe I’ve driven them. I grew up in an abusive home too x
Dear Betterdays, I can’t write much any more as I must go soon, but you are NOT an idiot, I have been following your posts and what you have experienced is horrific, you did not cause it nor deserve it.
Can you believe us please? We all say the same, you did not deserve any of it!
Must dash now but I will read the forum posts tomorrow again. Hugs in millions, ok?
Betterdays, these are the stories of our lives. You know it now and you put an end to the abuse.
You are a role model for your kids, to show them how to create a better world for themselves.
And you too will live much better one day.
I try to imagine, that one day, all the horror we experience will be nothing but a faint memory.