Karisqq I do feel the same as you. I feel like I’ve been repeating myself for months to anyone I come into contact with, and have the feeling some of them are needing a break from it. It’s so hard because talking helps to keep perspective and remember the bad stuff by seeing and hearing their reactions to what I tell them. But I’m running out of willing listeners it feels and even then I don’t want to become that person that never speaks about anything else. Some people don’t know how to help and end up worrying about you that you’re still not okay, which then makes you feel guilty for making them worry. I do also worry that I’ve got a skewed vision on what happened and that I’ve got it all wrong somehow.
It’s so hard and professional help is really difficult to reach.
I feel lonely due to being a very different age and it scares me what future will be, as everyone else has their lives and are settled, so I’m on my own quite a lot.
Keep posting here whenever you can and be kind to yourself
Xxxxx