Was I the 'crazy' one?

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HI,
I have just split up from my on/off bf off (detail removed by Moderator) and because I could not cope with how he treated me.
I believe he was emotionally and verbally abusive. His nickname for me was ‘Crazy’
I am now thinking maybe it was me??
He started off a very nice, kind man although I did notice red flags, like how he spoke about his exes, lying about having a child with his ex, having a jekyll and Hyde like character.
It got worse and worse, belittling my job, him blaming everyone else for his actions, I was too sensitive or no sense of humour, he also called my children names and ridiculed my disabled childaughter and other family members. I could literally type for ever and ever…was I the crazy, sensitive one or have I been abused.

[Borntobefree]

Hi hun
No you are not crazy
You was in abusive relationship like me
They make us think we are .but they are the ones with the problem… They are crazy making (detail removed by Moderator)..so happy you are free …time to work on you now X

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Thank you for your reply, borntobefree.
I have never been able to maintain no contact, I keep going back. The only last communication that was open was email, I have changed my number and blocked him on social media. I am only only on my (detail removed by Moderator) day off nc and I keep getting overwhelming urges to log in and see if he has emailed me. I don’t know what I am expecting, an enapathy that he’s relaised his wrongdoings, etc even though I know that would never happen.
I just don’t want to get him out my head…forever 🙁

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[Borntobefree]

Hi hun
I’ve been no contact for well over (detail removed by Moderator)

I unblocked my ex on social media worst mistake I did
I then self talked myself don’t go there again

Look up trauma bonding hun

It takes time to heal and move forward

It’s not easy hun

But it’s for the best no contact ruel x

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