Hi Fluffydot
I am really sorry to hear about what happened. I just wanted to reassure you that it is not your fault and you did nothing wrong.
If you haven’t already, it may help to get some support. You can speak to Rape Crisis 0808 802 9999 or they have a webchat too; https://rapecrisis.org.uk/ Hopefully they can then signpost you to some support in your area.
Take care and please keep posting,
Lisa