I’m just not the same person anymore. I know who I was was naive, overly-trusting etc but she was also happy and always looked for the good in the bad. These days I can’t even find the good in the good; I’m always thinking someone’s being kind to me to later hurt me, I’m sceptical and looking for ways that something could go wrong. The world just doesn’t seem as colourful anymore but grey and flat. Though I’m glad I’m not as trusting anymore, I don’t want to feel this way, I miss who I was. I was actually happier when I was in a DA relationship as my children were with me. They’ve been taken due to exposure to DA and I regret telling anyone; if I’d not said anything my kids would still be with me and I’d still be happy.