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      Rose1
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      My husband says the most horribly abusive things to me..and his moods shift so quickly that it can literally take my breath away…so why in the face of all this abuse am I terrified that he will leave..I didn’t used to be like this..I’d stand my corner..but now I cower and apologise for things that I shouldn’t have to..he deliberately says these things and frightens me..and inside I absolutely despise him but I just get swallowed up with fear..how will I manage..a year of abuse has literally turned me in to someone I don’t recognise..and I feel so alone with the secret and shame of my current life

    • #125512
      Catjam
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      Hi, these guys are so good at turning us into mush. They strip away everything from us till they have us exactly where they want us. You are stronger than you realise. I finally reached out to My gp who put me in touch with my local support group. Also get in touch with women’s aid.
      You have nothing to feel ashamed of, this is all about him and his need to keep you in one place which is doing everything for his benefit.
      If you can start keeping a record of everything, there are apps you can get.
      Some of the other ladies will have some good advice. Keep reaching out. The ladies on here are amazing and I wouldn’t be where I am without them xx

    • #125513
      Darcy
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      Hi beautiful Angel… Rose1,
      I second what Catjam says… ”You are stronger than you realise”
      He has just knocked your confidence and made you believe otherwise, which is very common in abuse.
      If you can research about trauma bonding, it is when you are bonded to the same person who gives you ‘love’ and approval aswell as who is mean and cruel to you… it’s very confusing and very powerful.
      Also try and work on your self love to build up your self esteem again, like you said you were once able to stand your corner… so what’s changed, find this power in you again.
      I always recommend reading or listening to Louise Hay, You Can Heal Your Life… this will give you some tools for self love and help strengthen your boundaries as to what you do and don’t find acceptable and get the wheels in motion for the life you really deserve.
      The fact that you have acknowledged what is going on and have an awareness is great… don’t give up hope… step back into your power … you’ve got this!
      Sending you continued love and support
      Darcy xx

    • #125514
      beachhut
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      Hi Rose1.

      What you are feeling is so typical when living with an abuser, they take everything away from us and make us feel that we need them and cannot survive without them. I know that for months I knew I had to go but was so frightened that if he left I would not be able to survive and do anything for myself, he took away my self confidence and turned me into a shell who came to depend on him. I left when he got arrested was so frightened that I would not survive without him, but after the initial shock realised that slowly my confidence returned, I could make the phone calls deal with the running of my life all by my self, had days of doubt but have started to see the old me, it’s a bit like coming out of hibernation slowly at first but gradually build up strength to find the old you. You cannot live with the stress and anxiety that you feel, it takes a toll on your mind and body that you do not deserve.

      Take care of you, beachhutXx

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