Hi Starmoon,
I completely identify with your post (like the majority on here)
My self blaming was daily and still is, “if I had done this/that he wouldn’t have hit me, or if only I did’t say that or did that”
So many things Starmoon and so many days I think my life would be better back with him but I know, I just can’t,for my own safety.
Kip is correct, we just need the fog to clear.
Take care xx