Hi
I think very little is known about the extremes of hell that some women are pushed to when they arrive at that point where to walk away from their children seems the only or best way out.
Its also very common for abusive fathers to threaten women until they leave the children, and divide children from the bond with their mother, and mother from child. parental alienation is very common for abusers, and it sometimes, maybe often, irreversible.
Are you ok? do you feel this way?
warmest wishes
TS