Hello, you have had no replies yet. Don’t be put off. I’m a bit ‘down’ today so I’m feeling a bit useless. Your experience was horrible. I don’t know what support you have locally? Your feeling down on yourself isn’t uncommon, I’m sure. It’s similar to believing we ‘attract’ abuser’s, or thinking we should have, could have, would have changed something that might have prevented the abuse in the first place. We take on the responsibility for the other person’s abuse. I think you should ‘go on’ as much as you need to, it might help you to express it. Xx