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[endoftherainbow]

I feel im a confused mess at the moment, in so many ways, very happy, I love my little flat and the great relationship iv been able to rebuild with my family, I can go out when I like and do everything when I want. I have gone no contact, so all the nasty threats have stopped which is fantastic. But sometimes im so angry, my teen is a mess at the moment, wont go to school, argues and shouts all the time, or locks away crying. He`s got away with so much, he caused all this trauma and is sitting pretty, hes moved on to the next victim, I wish I could warn her. He sold everything while I was in refuge so has no money worries, im still fight for child support. He still has his job, whereas I lost mine when I left.
I worry that my family will get fed up of me talking about things, they know iv been diagnosed with PTSD and have been great, but the voice {his voice} is still in the back of my head sayin they hate me and I get on their nerves.
Their lives don’t seem to change much, they cause all this damage and then just move on, I used to wish him dead to escape before, now id like it for revenge!! I want his live to be ruined as he did mine, then I get angry with myself for wasting energy on him instead of concentrating on all the good going on with my life…..vicious circle!
So, feel a bit better for getting that of my chest! Thank you all for being there x*x

[Borntobefree]

Hi hun
Iam so happy you are free from his abuse
It’s natural to feel so angry and to want revenge .. (detail removed by Moderator) my ex destroyed me too . I had to leave my job
And be bk beside my family ..

I have ptsd too because of my ex

But I won’t let him win or destroy my life more

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Keep plodding forward day by day

Make your life a good one

Abusers hate seeing us happy

Straighten your crown you are worth more than a (detail removed by Moderator) … my ex tried to sabatage my relationship with my family ..guess what he lost

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