Every time I imagine what life I want, what my future to be, the kind of life I want to live with my daughter…I feel like I am living in a fantasy world and I need to wake up. Why? Because it seems impossible and Im delusional for thinking it will ever be possible.
I have days where I want to fight this, for my child’s sake , for my own happiness but most days I feel so helpless, so powerless that I don’t have it in me to fight. I’ve lost so much of myself past few months. That life seems like a far away dream and I don’t know if it will ever be possible….