Thank you HunkyDory. I have found a solicitor who specialises in abuse. The thing is I saw her (detail removed by moderator) ago, the petition was sent to him but I opted out in the end as I got sucked back in (not for the first time I might add) so I can pick up where I left off apparently for a fee). I’m not sure how long it will all take but thanks to you ladies and other helpers and family members I feel a lot more confident about it now. I need to remain strong and remember something someone said to me. “Never settle for a relationship you wouldn’t want for your children / grandchildren.” This has had quite a profound effect on me and I will repeat it to myself in moments of weakness. I hope all goes well for you.