Thank you all for your advice and insights, it’s putting things into perspective and I honestly thought for so long if I could just be better and behave well then we will have a peaceful and enjoyable relationship but no matter how much I earn, clean, cook it’s never going to be good enough.
Yesterday I asked him if he wanted a brew and he just made a noise and I asked is that a yes or a no and he went mental at me ‘of course it’s a yes what’s wrong with you why have you got such an attitude’ and that kind of made it clear for me, not the worst explosion but just unwarranted.
I can’t leave just yet but in the next month I will be gone hopefully I just need
to make a bit of a plan and get rid of a lot of stuff.