Daphnee

[Daphnee]

Hi everyone,

I am new to the forum/website (please do forgive me if I have come to the wrong page or forum)…I have been trying to contact Women’s Aid via phone for many months via the website to no avail. I still have a hard time processing/saying the following but I am a survivor of Domestic Abuse (Emotional, Coercive, Physical, Financial and Religious abuse). (Detail removed by moderator)  ago I end up in a court because he was charged him, the evidence was enough to put him away but i was in my eyes weak, (court detail removed by moderator)  the case was dismissed.

He promised me so many things but it happened many times again….Married (detail removed by moderator) , assaulted and court from then to Easter. He promised me never again,  (detail removed by moderator) …was the last brutal attack that i experienced

I…for the 1st time in my life did not feel like a human being, i felt so worthless, less than anything living
I led for my life because he would have killed me that weekend…his mother who is religious and agreed with his behavior, I believe would have helped him

I testified (detail removed by moderator)  and he was found guilty…one of the most horrific experience of my life (i thought that in life and with him that i had experienced everything)…nothing can prepare you for his defense lawyer defending him. I felt like my soul was being ripped apart and when he was found guilty…there was no joy because he was my everything but i had been so gaslighted and abused…that i kept believing that he was my everything.

Less than (detail removed by moderator)  later…he appealed and i am about to testify again
I’ve not slept, i do not eat properly and all of my usual activities…gym, family and friends ceased to temporarily exist

From this last event i suffer from PTSD, had CBT therapy but i’ve been told that i need EMT therapy (at £85 i cannot afford it), i am in the middle of a brutal divorce where he still asserts his power

I tried to get a hold of Womens Aid because…an appeal is tough and i needed a listening ear

I don’t know how many of the women on this website have attained the level of strength…especially those with children
My husband and i were trying and he kicked me so hard in the stomach…i can’t bare to say anything else

Despite my journey i would like you to know that there are some in the criminal justice system who are there to help….I have had 2 very different experiences with different precincts and many times i had to be my own administrator and receptionist…calling and emailing the appropriate channels

And although i am so scared for my life and that of my loved ones…i couldn’t let this happen to the women after me… my heart and cant bare it

x

…..One day at a time x

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