One little part of me doubted that someone would reply and understand where I’m coming from. I’m sorry I’m not replying to you individually but this was nice to read. I thought I’d feel a little better about things but I think the fact that there are other people out there that do understand how I’m feeling and can actually support me. Why do I feel bad for opening up though? I don’t get why I don’t feel relieved that it’s out there I feel worried and nervous! Is it normal to feel like someone can find out who you are? I feel like I have so much to say and I want someone to talk to but I’m so scared of what the outcome could be.
I haven’t spoken to anyone yet but tomorrow I’m going to try, my doctor is really good with my health issues so I like to think he will be good with this too. Is it normal to feel confused as to why you can’t stop loving someone that clearly doesn’t love you too? That hurts you but you still stand by them? Why can’t I just wake up one day fuck it all off and walk away? Is it actually okay to feel like things might change one day and he might mean his apology? I don’t feel strong enough, I feel a lone and I feel worthless. I feel like I’m in peoples way and I don’t feel like I have anyone. Why does someone feel so lonely but can be surrounded by people? Why do I then shut myself away from these people.
Im in my late 20’s and I actually feel like I need my mum sometimes, I feel like she can keep me safe but I can’t tell her what’s going on as I don’t want to her to be upset.
How did everyone first start talking about what was happening to you? Who did you first tell x
