Iamsotired

[Iamsotired]

Hello lovely,

I believe your feelings are valid and you know at the end of the day yes they are your family but do not let their words nor anything affect you. It is important to take care of yourself and surround yourself with people that are truly their for you in dark and light times. You do not owe them anything love, its okay to put yourself first. Congratulations on your (detail removed by Moderator), if you think that it isn’t good for them to come then don’t let them. They are your parents and I understand you as I have experience that myself. They should be able to be supportive and be open and respectful of your feelings. Dont feel like your obligated to invite them to your (detail removed by Moderator). When my mum did that emotional damage to me, i have cut her off long time and never ever bond with her nor tell her things again. It was a learning experience for her too now she treats my siblings better. Your parents should learn more about mental health make them aware if they still can’t handle it its their loss. Always surround yourself with people who cares about your well being. Also go seek for mental help, you can ask your gp for mental health check up im sure they can help you. You are doing great and always have been your parents just cared for you wrongly and they look like they want you to be someone they wasn’t. They also seem jealous of you probably as you are perfect or enjoying life compared to them.

[Iamsotired]

I have let go and escaped. I havent gotten any answer from my visa situation i called and the service never called back. I can no longer endure more of the pain i am experiencing. I have asked if i can sleepover at my boyfriends and they have denied it i am an adult. I dont wanna go back and ever. I didnt spoke to anyone i just left they did alwasy say i am free to go but i take care of my visa. I cant take it anymore i have somewhere to stay and my friend and boyfriend has supported me. I could stay at either if there houses and live life. I am gonna sort out my visa problem soon as i would want to be free. Am i doing wrong? Us it bad i wanna go and leave? Are my parents gonna track me down? Are they gonna make police pick me up?

[Iamsotired]

Help i am now lost and everything seems to be normal again everyone is nice but then i dont feel good my gut is feeling bad and i still feel like i am restricted to see my bf im afraid to ask i have been thinking about different scenarios in my head such as they will allow me or they will not and it will go bad. I wanna escape here but i am trap on self conflicts i argue with my own thoughts because i wanna leave but something is stopping me

[Iamsotired]

Thank you Lisa, I have been planning to get out of the family home but i am still figuring out my visa situation. I dont want anything to be done to my parents as they are needed by my siblings. I just wanna get out and be free from it as being an adult i dont feel the freedom of seeing my boyfriend or enjoying life. They are angry if i dont do anything in the house or take care of my sibling. I am trapped on constant self doubt and just self conflict. I have my times of crying, anxiety and just depressed. I am free to go to the gym and church which makes me think i should be lucky plus got offered a job. This makes me feel guilty and feel like im in the wrong and that i shouldn’t act this way. I feel guilty even reaching out to service and saying its abuse because i go to denial from it. I have thoughts of escaping from here quitely and quickly when i have the chance because i cant see the person i love or live my life as i want to. Am I wrong for having these thoughts? Would it be impossible to do because it seems like it. Will I just not be able to escape this anytime soon because it feels like no one will believe me. They seem like good parents and idk i feel afraid of escaping as maybe i will go back to them.

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